You’ve got to be shitting me

Listening to: D-Technolife
Reading: Soul of the Night
Watching: Reaper

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I’ve just learned my best friend is living in a glorified trailer with his girlfriend, they are on unemployment, and they are planning to sell marijuana to make a living.

OH GOD.

I don’t even know what to think.

All I know is that this is another reason why I should’ve never left California in the first place.

Trailer. Weed. Unemployment.

Christ!

Sexy Man Love? Hah, I wish.

Listening to: Bleed It Out
Reading: Tarot Made Easy
Watching: Brokeback Mountain

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Okay, I’ll admit it.

The only thing stopping me from watching Brokeback Mountain was that I didn’t think I’d be able to handle watching Heath and Jake doing you-know-what. I don’t blush easy, trust me I don’t, but you give me two guys doing the down and dirty and I start to stammer. It’s embarrasing. I thought I outgrew it since I got more really, really, really open gay friends, but I guess not. I don’t think it’s something I’ll ever get used to. M/M can be a beautiful, wonderful thing, but really, don’t start grinding against each other in front of me. I won’t be held responsible for my actions. Like fainting. Or drooling. Or snapping a million pics a minute.

I recently learned that one of my friends, Marcus, is gay. Wow. That came as a total surprise, since I thought he liked me more than a friend a few years back when I was still living in California. Now, Marcus is one of the most beautiful guys I’ve ever known/seen. Really. With long blond hair and tiny wire glasses perched on his straight nose, he looked like something from another era. A more romantic, chivalrous era, perhaps? He was a total gentleman, and I think I was a little bit in love with him. Hell, it was impossible to remain impervious around him and his Old World charm. Even after five years later, I still don’t know what exactly it was about him. I mean, there are lots of guys who are incredibly beautiful. There are lots of men who are honorable and genuinely care about people around them. So what is it about him? Well, this summer when I go back to Cali, I aim to find out.

Anyways, he’s gay. Damn. I don’t know what to think. On one hand, I’m glad he’s happy with at least someone, because I remembered him in being some really fucked up relationships. It’s amazing how messed up girls can be. No wonder men go gay. Sheesh.

Okay, back to the subject.

So, he’s happy. Which is good, but on the flipside, I’m kind of sad that he is. Sure, I’m sure he didn’t come to this decision overnight (or maybe he did? Who knows?) but I think I’ll miss the old Marcus. The Marcus who flirted with just about any girl between the ages of 4 to 97. Darn. Nowadays, I’ve heard that he’s very serious and quiet, so when I see him again, it’ll be like meeting someone new.

Ah well. People change. It’s a part of life. I just wish I could get used to it.

Well, that’s it for this entry. I managed to eek out about 1k on Blood Light yesterday at a bar, so here’s for another 1k!

Peanut Butter Wiki & 2009

Listening to: Wicked Game
Reading: Empire of Unreason
Watching: Alone in the Dark II

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Oh boy. Oh man… >_<

I’m trying to organize my teaching schedule for January, and I can’t seem to find any time for writing. Unless you count the two hours I have every night at 11 PM. Which…is better than some people, but it’s still going to be a very, very harrowing month for me. Teaching’s a good way for me to get the heck out of the house, but when it takes time away from writing…

On second thought, I haven’t really been able to do much writing to begin with. Hm.

Actually, I’d like to recommend a fab site to all those writers out there who’re looking for a way to organize their next project. Maybe some of you have heard of/used it before, but it’s PB Wiki, short for Peanut Butter Wiki, and it’s awesome. Really. I’ve used it before, but never really found any use for it until now, since I’ve never really done any serious research/thinking before writing something. Well, with my new WIP, Blood Light, I’ve been doing lots of both and Pb Wiki has been a great place to organize my thoughts and ideas. I have pages describing the main characters, stuff about what should happen, a place for my time line…I’m usually not so keen on web programs, because you can only use it if you have internet access, but this is pretty sweet. I, very muchly, recommend it.

Well, it’s a little less than 12 hours until the New Year, so Happy New Year to everyone, and let’s hope 2009 is better than 2008!

I said Yes!

Listening to: Drive To You
Reading: Empire of Unreason
Watching: Blade II

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So.

I said YES to Yes Man. Really. It’s classic Jim Carrey…and yes, he’s still got it. So I recommend this. Heartily. It’s awesome. It sure as hell beats the rest of whatever’s playing in the theaters nowadays. So. Go watch it. I demand it.

Started a little something new two days ago. I have absolutely no idea where I’m taking it, but I’m already compiling ideas of what goes on, and it’s great because for once, I’m not trying to struggle with something that I wrote a year ago and now have no idea what to do with it.

Here’s a little excerpt:

“God damn it!”

Oops. Hadn’t expected that to happen.

He stared down at the bloody mess in his hand, eyes wide in disbelief, and I took that opportunity to apologize.

Or, at least, attempt to.

“Look, I’m sorry about that, but if your friend,” I motioned to the KISS guy, who huddled against the wall, hands over his ears, “hadn’t been so frisky, you’d still have your ear. Really.”

Double Van Gogh stared at me as though there was nothing more he wanted to do than tear the head off my shoulders, but he knew and I knew, if he did that, it’d be his head coming off next.

And yeah, vamps have come a long, long way through history, but as far as anyone knew, a decapitated vampire did not stand up again. Ever.

And yes, it’s a first person urban fantasy, but hey, what can I say? Vampires get me every time, heh.

Summer Days…waiting for Summer Days!

Listening to: Summer Days
Reading: Empire of Unreason
Watching: “Yes Man” trailer

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So far, the only movie this holiday season I’ve met to see is Yes Man…which is why I’m going to go see it tomorrow at the morning special. Admittedly, I knew absolutely nothing about this movie except that it had Jim Carrey, even after I booked two tickets, so just right now I looked up the trailer, and I really think this might be a good watch. Will let you folks know tomorrow when I get back about what I really thought.

Yesterday, I opened up the wip file of Demon Moon, and once again, it struck me how difficult it is to work on something that you haven’t touched in at least a few months. Really. I had no idea what was going on, so after fiddling around with it for about an hour or so, I closed the file, turned off my computer and threw myself into bed. Literally.

Please, please, don’t do what I did. It sucks. Really. I’m not sure about the literal part, unless you actually turn on the vacuum and it ends up sucking up your cousin’s three hundred marble set.

Hm.

Oops?

I’m Getting Away With Murder…

Listening to: Papa Roach
Reading: Incubus Dreams
Watching: Yakitate

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So, I saw “The Day the Earth Stood Still” and man…it was stupid. Just stupid. Keanu Reeves is, as usual, totally dead/bored as he was in all the rest of his films, and the only bright side to this movie was Jennifer Connolly. Everything else was just…eek. If you do end up going to the theatre to watch a movie, spare yourself the two hours, and go watch “Yes Man” or “Journey to the Center of the Earth”.

Today, I found myself esqueing Nightwish and Epica for Papa Roach. Guess it’s telling me something.

Get working on Demon Moon!

Which I will proceed to, right about…

Now.

Staring at a baguette…

Listening to: Heroine
Reading: Going Postal
Watching: Yakitate Japan

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Currently at a bakery cafe, on the second floor, and since I’m in the center of a major shopping district with lots of stores, restraurants, and bars, I can see all the people here, and wow…there are a lot of people outside. Seems like everyone’s left their homes this Christmas to go wandering a bit, even though it’s 30 degrees out there. Cold! Although, tomorrow, I’ve heard it’s going to drop all the way down to 14 degrees in the morning. Eek!

I’m working on Golden Prince. I’ve got about 5 pages written so far, and I’m hoping to get another 5 written before calling it a day. I’ve got plans to watch “The Day The World Stopped” with a friend of mine tonight at 7. It’s not like I particularly wanted to see this movie, but it was the only one available, since all the other times and movies are already all sold out. I’m still debating if I should see Twilight, just to see if it’s as bad as the book.

Then it’s off to the gym with Mom. Oh goodie. Anyone who can keep a steady weight during the holidays must be a holy being. I don’t know how anyone can do it.

Well, that’s enough rambling for the day. Got a book to write, a friend to console, and a beanbag to kick the shit out of.

Hope everyone has a great holiday!

To have someone to come home to

Listening to: To All Tha’ Dreamers
Reading: Once Upon a Spring Morn
Watching: Yakitate Japan

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I’m depressed.

Really.

I’m depressed, and I can’t pinpoint why I feel like drawing the covers up to my chin and just sleeping.

It’s Christmas Eve, and Fiance is away in Taiwan,with his coworkers, probably getting drunk and having fun. Yes, I know, I sound bitter, but hey, can you blame me? He won’t be back until Sunday, but until then, I’ll probably be staring at the computer screen, wondering why the hell I can’t write, wondering why the hell anything would be preferable to typing another word in my wip. Any of my wips, for that matter.

I’m trying to listen to upbeat songs, to get me back in a groovin’ mood again, but come on, let’s face it. I’ve got no friends here, no lover, and my parents just finalized their divorce today.

*head desk*

Don’t mistake this for a pathetic whine about how the world just hates me. It’s not that. There are a number of things I can do.

1. Go to the Christmas Eve party at Psycho’s, the bar I frequent and see some people I know.

2. Go watch “Yes Man” at the cinema, although it’ll probably be packed.

3. Read something. Anything.

I’m sure there’s more but I’m not coming up with them at the moment.

Ah, you know what? I think I’m going to have some wine and then going to bed, and when I wake up, it’ll be Christmas and a brand new day.

Merry Christmas, folks.

Get those gifts out!

Listening to: Is It Real?
Reading: Going Postal
Watching: Yakitate Japan

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Found out that my Secret Santa buddy got her present yesterday, woo! Although, next year, I think I’m going to send it at the beginning of the month, rather than the middle of the month, so I won’t have to dish out more than the actual gift cost, for the shipping and handling. Ah well. At least, she liked the earrings. Initially, I was a bit wary of sending jewelry, since I wasn’t sure if she’d be like, “Wtf? She sent me earrings? What does she think I am?” but I think she likes them. At least, I’m hopeful. Here’s another thing I’m hoping for: That everyone in my critique group have gotten and sent out presents.

Wink, wink, nudge, nudge, poke, poke, kick, kick.

Oh, I am pitying me…

Listening to: Naraku no Hana “Hell Flower”
Reading: Maskerade
Watching: Appaloosa

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GAH.

It’s 26.6F out there. Cold! It wouldn’t be half as bad if the wind wasn’t blowing enough to threaten to blow the roofs right out over our heads, but there you have it. Weather is a fickle, fickle thing.

Three days until Christmas. Oh joy. NB will be away in Taiwan, so my Christmas will probably be spent alone, in front of the computer, watching reruns of Supernatural and The Big Bang Theory. I’m sorry, do I sound bitter? Trust me, I’m not. Mom said she wanted to go skiing, but I don’t think I’ll go…everytime I go, I always end up spending way more than I should.

Well, managed to get down about 1.2k on Golden Prince, so that was a major yay. For a while, I was scared that I’d just written myself into a corner.

Here’s the latest excerpt:

With Aeveon standing like a particularly annoying shadow at his back, he stepped into the copse as Nira shoved the hood off her head.

“Well, it’s not much,” she said quietly. “But it’s enough. Enough for Vale and I, and that’s the only thing that counts, yes?”

Chevelle didn’t know if she was expecting an answer, so he settled with something like a half-nod and a grunt that could have been one of assertion.

A pale plume of smoke spiraled from a tiny stone chimney, and apart from the small thatched hut and an equally small well adjacent from it, there was not much to be seen. He couldn’t help but wonder what sort of witch Nira was. Surely, she could witch herself some riches, or even a better place to live. Why, even his worst subjects lived in a better place than the hut that looked as though it would fall apart if he so much as sneezed in its direction.

“Do you think the oven’s in that tiny hut?” whispered Aeveon.